然而，如果就只是如果。
他不可能回来。
心疼了，泪掉了，
是时候该往前走了。
流星划过的天空，
看不见痕迹是否代表就消失呢？
失去的人，
虽然已不在身边，
却深深留在心中。
没有了你，我忘了自己是谁。
Monday, January 4, 2010
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
还是不能
时间真的已经走了很多截，
2009也来到了最后第二天，
原以为能够过得很好，
原以为笑着也能过日子。
我很想自私的活下去，
何必在乎别人怎么想，
何必让自己难堪，
只要自己快乐，哪有什么不能的？
当你牵起了她的手，
我就知道我应该走，
当你说你爱她，
我就知道没有什么可以从来？
可是，我能好好得过吗？
我能吗？
10个月有多，
我到底干了什么？
我真的很想很想身边有你唠叨的日子。真的！
我能有extra ordinary的方式在自己的国度里好好爱你一遍吗？
就这样的爱着！一直爱下去...
Friday, November 6, 2009
想飞
刚读过一篇文章，婚后...每一对情侣，在恋爱时所对婚姻的憧憬是甜蜜的，是快乐的，是无私的奉献。可是，一段感情失温了以后该离去还是假装不懂？记得曾经听过一句话：“感情会累，会变冷都是一个过程。但，有人选择离开却也有人选择等待。等待一次的火花，让爱情回温。”...你呢？你会怎么做？
只想说，如果结婚只为了等待离婚，哪有什么意思？如果在一起却等着分手，那有什么意思呢？本来，事情就不曾有过绝对。今天，我或许无法认同可是并不代表说未来的日子我不会去改变。人，每到一个阶段所需求和想得到的并不一样。或许，当感情走得太久了，我忘了对方的需要。或许我的大意让事情变得糟糕。
如果累了，不是我不再爱，只是在此刻我更想飞。对不起，我没办法承担一个责任。请你让我飞...这是我的选择，选择不再为任何事情停留，只为了自己。
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
appreciate.
Holiday is coming to the end,time to back to study...feel boring,3weeks ago i felt that holiday is damn long,i had no idea what to do during this "loong" holiday.Day pass a day,time pass time only i realize time was gone in flash.Nothing much i had done for my holiday,playing,eating,sleeping and dreaming.
I remembered that in last semester our lecturer want us to discover about online relationship.It is very objective for every different single human being.Some people might think it is a very common scenario for current society,we have lot Internet friends which we unsure they are reliable,trustworthy or not.For my own opinion,i think internet just like a big of real society,having lot of different types of people,some might just as pure as to get a friend through internet,some might just to flirt around and wish to get accompany or maybe there are some people intent to bluff people in this big virtual world. No matter how we define virtual world we can't escape to be participate in it. I believe that in virtual world will have someone who really treat each other as real friend,having something common to share with.human being relationship are something really strange,even in real world we might can't differentiate who is real or fake,there is no any actual measurement,isn't it?there is no sure thing as attitude ruler to measure a good person or evil,as long as we did our part nicely,who care how others thought about us.
Life may just end tomorrow,brother of my friend just passed away not long ago.It 2nd cases in this year,life seem so fragile,human seem so small.we couldn't change anything,everyone wishing a better tomorrow but how we could make it?we are just too small to be in control our life,we weren't know what tomorrow could bring us and what we could give for tomorrow.When we are fear to step out,we are reluctant to care people around,we being hopeless for who we are now,who else could help beside we own?I'm the person that very greedy,sometime i want more than i can get,i understand the theory but it just too hard for me to apply.Lets cross finger with self,for make a better self,for not live self in regret...start from this moment love people around,show them concern and stay happy.We might can't give other a better tomorrow but before the last breath we make a different for our own,i guess when come to the end of day,our life will be wonderful.
I remembered that in last semester our lecturer want us to discover about online relationship.It is very objective for every different single human being.Some people might think it is a very common scenario for current society,we have lot Internet friends which we unsure they are reliable,trustworthy or not.For my own opinion,i think internet just like a big of real society,having lot of different types of people,some might just as pure as to get a friend through internet,some might just to flirt around and wish to get accompany or maybe there are some people intent to bluff people in this big virtual world. No matter how we define virtual world we can't escape to be participate in it. I believe that in virtual world will have someone who really treat each other as real friend,having something common to share with.human being relationship are something really strange,even in real world we might can't differentiate who is real or fake,there is no any actual measurement,isn't it?there is no sure thing as attitude ruler to measure a good person or evil,as long as we did our part nicely,who care how others thought about us.
Life may just end tomorrow,brother of my friend just passed away not long ago.It 2nd cases in this year,life seem so fragile,human seem so small.we couldn't change anything,everyone wishing a better tomorrow but how we could make it?we are just too small to be in control our life,we weren't know what tomorrow could bring us and what we could give for tomorrow.When we are fear to step out,we are reluctant to care people around,we being hopeless for who we are now,who else could help beside we own?I'm the person that very greedy,sometime i want more than i can get,i understand the theory but it just too hard for me to apply.Lets cross finger with self,for make a better self,for not live self in regret...start from this moment love people around,show them concern and stay happy.We might can't give other a better tomorrow but before the last breath we make a different for our own,i guess when come to the end of day,our life will be wonderful.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Finally
Finally i got walk through from the pain..
finally i don't struggling for the past..
finally i breath the fresh air..
sometimes,i wonder...life getting complicate because of a person.
therefore,stay life simple,everything would be much better.Exam is done...Holiday-ing now.
damn syiok!!!but i got no plan what to do yet..any idea??open for a date...who want join me?
finally i don't struggling for the past..
finally i breath the fresh air..
sometimes,i wonder...life getting complicate because of a person.
therefore,stay life simple,everything would be much better.Exam is done...Holiday-ing now.
damn syiok!!!but i got no plan what to do yet..any idea??open for a date...who want join me?
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Day 13...without you.
This moment,I miss you so much.Doing revision alone in this cold midnight,Exam in the corner but where are you?sleep?blogging?chatting?...I am alone with Books and notes.
I remembered previously, I do revision for Midterm test and you're still here for accompanied. Normally, I would call and ask you study and memorize important points for me. Stupid enough??I have no choice cause my BF is really smart. Tonight, I gotta study y own and memorize every points by my own. Final exam is near but you aren't here anymore.
Anyway,I promise to myself and this is for you.I wish you will come back as you promise. No matter how many years to go as long as you would turn back, I would be here to say halloo. Thing might turn different but I dont't want lose a friend when i already lose you as bf.No matter how many years that you need to forgive and forget, I wish you're here still in my life.
Jess
2/9/2009
0300am
I remembered previously, I do revision for Midterm test and you're still here for accompanied. Normally, I would call and ask you study and memorize important points for me. Stupid enough??I have no choice cause my BF is really smart. Tonight, I gotta study y own and memorize every points by my own. Final exam is near but you aren't here anymore.
Anyway,I promise to myself and this is for you.I wish you will come back as you promise. No matter how many years to go as long as you would turn back, I would be here to say halloo. Thing might turn different but I dont't want lose a friend when i already lose you as bf.No matter how many years that you need to forgive and forget, I wish you're here still in my life.
Jess
2/9/2009
0300am
Monday, August 31, 2009
爱过就不后悔
虽然，嘴里...心里...不断地重复有多么的讨厌他，恨他。但，我重来都不曾后悔最后的选择是他。
今天我们处于这种地步，我的责任是最大。比起我对他的恨意，他比任何人都更有资格很我。这段感情我学的很多，感受到很多。快了，悲伤，讨厌，烦...错中复杂的情绪。我自认从开始我给予他的爱的确少得可怜，少得他苦苦哀求希望我能爱他多一点。我后悔自己不曾用心爱他，原来在我跑他追的情况我已经习惯有他在身边唠唠叨叨的日子，有个人不断地跟我吵架，不断的说爱我。我不后悔在最后发现真个事实时选择留在他身边。然，我后悔的是原本可以好好爱他，我却错过了。
到了现在，我们谈不上曾经深爱过。到了现在，我却发现原来我们连朋友都不是。那，剩下的还有什么呢？他说过，在我身上他体验了很多第一次的感受。第一次如此爱一个女生，第一次不断的吵架，第一个为女生哭了又哭...还有很多很多。在他离开前，他说：“不是我不再爱你，可是...那总是夹着可是。或许现在我不再回来，或许以后我会回来。”....我呆了，以后？以后是多久以后的事呢？我不会等，因为等待的人最愚蠢。等待的人让生命停留不动，让理想停止。而这一切就只为了等待一个不知的未来吗？我当然希望有一天我开大眼睛就看见他，可是我却也知道梦想离现实很远的道理。
我只想再说，选择是你，我没有后悔。不管现在变成了怎样，我依然相信曾经的曾经你是如此如此的深爱着我。而我，却爱得太迟。原谅我...原谅我的自私。我想念你为我做的每一件事，生病了为我买的药，坚持爱我的的心，我们一起看的夕阳，我一起到过的海边，我踏足的沙滩，我们的海鲜意大利面，你准备的早餐，你为我哭的表情，你送给我的每一个笑脸，你对我的付出，你抱着我旋转的回忆都是我想的。感情本来就是失或得，我失去你但我或得比失去更多。
爱过总比什么都没有来得好，既然我们连朋友都谈不上那我就把你忘了。爱过就不后悔...
今天我们处于这种地步，我的责任是最大。比起我对他的恨意，他比任何人都更有资格很我。这段感情我学的很多，感受到很多。快了，悲伤，讨厌，烦...错中复杂的情绪。我自认从开始我给予他的爱的确少得可怜，少得他苦苦哀求希望我能爱他多一点。我后悔自己不曾用心爱他，原来在我跑他追的情况我已经习惯有他在身边唠唠叨叨的日子，有个人不断地跟我吵架，不断的说爱我。我不后悔在最后发现真个事实时选择留在他身边。然，我后悔的是原本可以好好爱他，我却错过了。
到了现在，我们谈不上曾经深爱过。到了现在，我却发现原来我们连朋友都不是。那，剩下的还有什么呢？他说过，在我身上他体验了很多第一次的感受。第一次如此爱一个女生，第一次不断的吵架，第一个为女生哭了又哭...还有很多很多。在他离开前，他说：“不是我不再爱你，可是...那总是夹着可是。或许现在我不再回来，或许以后我会回来。”....我呆了，以后？以后是多久以后的事呢？我不会等，因为等待的人最愚蠢。等待的人让生命停留不动，让理想停止。而这一切就只为了等待一个不知的未来吗？我当然希望有一天我开大眼睛就看见他，可是我却也知道梦想离现实很远的道理。
我只想再说，选择是你，我没有后悔。不管现在变成了怎样，我依然相信曾经的曾经你是如此如此的深爱着我。而我，却爱得太迟。原谅我...原谅我的自私。我想念你为我做的每一件事，生病了为我买的药，坚持爱我的的心，我们一起看的夕阳，我一起到过的海边，我踏足的沙滩，我们的海鲜意大利面，你准备的早餐，你为我哭的表情，你送给我的每一个笑脸，你对我的付出，你抱着我旋转的回忆都是我想的。感情本来就是失或得，我失去你但我或得比失去更多。
爱过总比什么都没有来得好，既然我们连朋友都谈不上那我就把你忘了。爱过就不后悔...
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